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Pretty please with sugar on top…? December 14, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — Televixen @ 5:39 am

Hey guys!
I hate to ask you to do anything when it comes to giving money, signing petitions or voting. You can relax, I am not asking for the first two. However, I would LOVE IT if you could be a friend and take a minute to vote for a poem of mine called “The Fist.” It’s entered in the Poetry Nook Weekly contest and I have a shot at winning it. You do have to register, but it’s a very quick process. If any of you are writers, you know how hard it is to put yourself out there in a public forum, let alone have people comparing you to others. I feel very exposed, but also excited to share some personal writing with you all. Anyway, I will stop rambling now. The link is right here. The contest ends on 12/15/14 (Monday), so don’t wait too long!

Thanks. I love you all.



Take every chance, drop every fear August 28, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — Televixen @ 2:19 am

love,inspirational,lifestyle,quote,risk,truth-8a4811672a971aa161316107a1fe3f21_hI take chances. But at the same time, I’m scared of change. What separates me from others is that I take drastic steps for fear of standing in one place. When I was younger some of these things were a bit reckless. Older and wiser, I still find myself trying new things because they scare me. Everything I’ve ever been afraid of has usually been worth the fear ten fold. At the very least, it’s been a good learning experience. I fall on my face constantly (and often publicly), but at least I can say I put myself out there. There are so many people I know who would let fear render them immobile. Some decisions are probably crazy when it comes to money, but ultimately happiness and new experiences are more important. What’s the point of living through drama when you can be on a new adventure? I know it’s easier said than done. Sometimes I wish I could follow my own advice better. For the most part, I have embraced trying new things or sometimes revisiting something I once loved. Not everyone can change careers at the blink of an eye or uproot themselves and go to Europe on a whim. I’m not advising that (unless that’s what you want), what I am saying is taking baby steps in the right direction is better than standing still.

I constantly second-guess myself. I’m human. But, I don’t let those voices in my head take over. I trust my gut on things. We have one life to live and that’s it. We might as well make the best of it while we’re healthy enough to enjoy it right? You never know when your time is up. 

I am constantly testing what it is I truly want to do with my life. Surprise, I didn’t have life figured out by 23 like I thought 7c5f40498d722711c41447131d6cc603I would when I was a kid! There’s no shame in admitting you’re making it up as you go along. The plan often changes. Sometimes it feels like it’s 10 steps back, but I am tired of being cranky after a long day. I’m exhausted by drama and just want to try something new that won’t eat up my entire existence. Sometimes you just need a job that will put a roof over your head and clothes on your back. You don’t need to define yourself by your work situation. Fight Club tells us that is not you. That is what allows you to survive so you can be yourself the rest of the time. I’ve always said “do the things you have to do, so you can do the things you want to do” (and that’s a personal quote of mine). The “day job” is Hollywood’s dirty little secret. But, beyond work, I feel like every person should go through a period of self discovery. I have friends who don’t know who they are outside of their relationships. They define themselves (consciously or not) by their boyfriends and their boyfriends’ interests. I never really had this problem, but I still want to know myself better. I grew up fast and missed out on a lot of what it meant to be a kid. I find myself at this age trying to discover what brings me joy. Who am I? What are my triggers? What are my goals? Isn’t happiness enough? With every idea comes a new question and I think that’s OK. It’s all a part of the road of self-discovery. Again, I would rather live having no regret than wonder “what if?”

imagesThrough my journey in LA, I’ve taken many detours. I have strayed from what’s important, but I’ve never lost sight of myself. I’ve never believed my own hype or felt like I didn’t need to “earn it.” Ultimately, I like a challenge. I accept the unknown. I want to meet interesting people and have new experiences. You can learn so much from others, but sometimes my shyness (yes, I can be shy) completely freezes me. The last two years have taught me what it means to be a mature adult, to make decisions about things you cannot control. I’ve had to take on daunting tasks I never thought I could handle. Someone once said (and I’m probably paraphrasing), “you never know how strong you are until you are forced to be.” I’ve learned to accept what I can’t change and know that it likely has little to do with me. (Sorry for the AA-type language, but some of it applies here.)4cf22808d2afffe40e806eb96326b7f9

So, I am on a new adventure of self-discovery. I am terrified that I will hate it or people will question the logic, but I don’t care. It all leads somewhere. Regret is something I will never feel. This business is a crazy one, as is life in general. Real life is messy. I prefer to stick to the wisdom of the Psychedelic Furs, in that “you can never win or lose if you don’t run the race.” 

In Mary words, you can never know what “could have been,” if you’re stuck in “what is.” If life is messy, I’m not afraid to get my hands dirty. Sorry for all the cliches, but sometimes cliches ring true. 



Those little moments July 26, 2014

Filed under: Life,Television & Film — Televixen @ 4:25 pm

Sometimes there are moments throughout the day that stop us in our tracks, that make us smile and help us realize things always fall into place. Connor Bright, my young co-host of Glue Guns and Phasers, was obviously meant to become a Star Trek fan. Although, a generation apart and half the country away, two girls were destined to become the dynamic duo of cosmic crafting. Yesterday, while at work she sent me this photo. Normally, I ignore my phone while on the job, but this made me smile ear to ear. To the “next generation” of fans, welcome aboard. There’s always room on the USS Enterprise for young bright minds.


Connor in the arms of her father on the transporter pad next to her mom.


Twilight Zone Marathons on SyFy: A Holiday Tradition July 4, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — Televixen @ 7:18 pm

“I don’t know why it is, but I’m frightened. A fear just about as vague as its object. Maybe it isn’t really a fear. It’s more just a sense of disquiet, a feeling that things are a little wrong.”

That’s a quote from one of my favorite episodes of “The Twilight Zone.” The Hitchhiker is just one of the many episodes airing on SyFy today. I’m not doing anything for the Fourth of July because I have a lot of work. But, in these moments between, I’m finding my place… in the Twilight Zone.



Dammit Jim, I’m a crafter not a critic! Today, I am. June 30, 2014

Filed under: Life,Uncategorized — Televixen @ 7:29 pm
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Today, the Supreme Court ruled that some companies have the right to opt out of the new health law that requires coverage of contraceptives for women. This ruling is a very controversial decision as it is allowing for-profit businesses to exercise their religious views over their employees’ rights. Those rights equal the state. Those views equal religion. So much for separation of church and state! The biggest offender? Hobby Lobby, which carries products geared towards women and employs a large number of ladies. So, if you work for a company that’s owned by religious people, say goodbye to free contraceptives. Your rights are apparently not your own. Your views are irrelevant. Your body belongs to the almighty Jesus even if you don’t believe he exists.

Hobby Lobby, the craft store and its corporate company, should be ashamed of itself. Their workforce and shoppers are largely women and yet, their efforts to take away birth control rights are one giant slap in the face to those who work hard for them and put money into their registers. The Oklahoma-based company has over 15,000 full-time employees and more than 600 stores in 41 states. It’s owned by evangelical Christians (shocker!), which explains why they are the biggest company fighting Obama’s birth control provision. Now, I am not very good at math, but even I know that effects boatloads of women who may or may not hold their religious views. The contraceptives at issue before the court were the emergency contraceptives Plan B and ella, and two IUDs. Why is this such a problem you ask? Because religious nuts would rather hurt women than kill something they equate to a baby, even though it’s not even conceived or developed into anything yet. I can understand religious organizations that don’t pay taxes being exempt from such a requirement. You pretty much know what you’re getting into when you work for them, but a craft store? How dare they hold such immense power over hourly employees who just need to work to get by?

You might say, I have no stake in this argument. Except that I am a woman (duh). AND that I am a crafter and might have to buy something from Hobby Lobby in a pinch if there’s no Michaels in the area. I would never work for such a company, but I sympathize with women who have to because they have no other options. I don’t think I’ve ever purchased anything from them and I definitely won’t now. Moves like this make my blood boil. I usually avoid talking politics and religion in public forums, but this time, the gloves are off. One day, we’ll look back at these moments and wonder how humans could be so primitive in 2014?!

Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg called the decision “potentially sweeping” because it shows the government isn’t interesting in making laws universal for all companies. Ginsburg said, ” it discounts the disadvantages religion-based opt outs impose on others, in particular, employees who do not share their employer’s religious beliefs.” From Wikipedia: In September 2012, Hobby Lobby filed a lawsuit against the United States over new regulations requiring health insurance provided by employers to cover emergency contraceptives, stating that, “(t)he Green family’s religious beliefs forbid them from participating in, providing access to, paying for, training others to engage in, or otherwise supporting abortion-causing drugs and devices.”

So, let’s get this straight. Hobby Lobby is arguing that the Affordable Care Act violates their religious views and therefore they do not have to offer birth control to their employees as part of their coverage. This translates to Hobby Lobby assuming their employees feel the same as they do. This assumes women who work for them must all be Christian and therefore hold the same beliefs even if having a child would ruin their life. This kind of mis-use of the Constitution and “The Religious Freedom Restoration Act” is so fucked! It’s fucked up because it’s using the very same logic of freedom to prevent female employees from having freedom. In a nutshell, the federal government cannot “substantially burden a person’s exercise of religion,” even if the burden results from a general law intended to apply to everyone. Again, fucked!

It is one thing for the Green family, who owns Hobby Lobby, to be closed on Sunday and religious holidays. It’s bad enough that they force their shoppers and staff to listen to Christian tunes over the loud speaker. It’s bad enough they don’t offer holiday decor for the Jewish and other religions. But, it’s quite something else for them to tell their staff they cannot have the same basic human rights the rest of the country is entitled to. Yes, you might say, you don’t have to work for them if you don’t agree, but that’s looking at it from our upper middle class bubble. It might be Hobby Lobby or unemployment with a household full of kids to feed. In fact, if you work for them, you probably do have a household full of kids to feed because well, you can’t get birth control. Sorry ladies, you’re just going to have to carry something for 9 months and provide for it for 18 years because your boss and the federal government made you do it. Again, fucked! I am so ashamed of this ruling. I am ashamed of our country and their disregard for women. One day, we will look at this as insane. Until then, this is reality. This is reality for a lot of women who just need a job. This has to get overturned. This can’t be the way we treat people in 2014 or is it?


Frighteningly accurate in some ways… March 8, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — Televixen @ 8:09 pm

Frighteningly Accurate in some ways...

Not saying what part of the LA area I live in.
; )


Top 14 Romantic Songs: IMO February 19, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — Televixen @ 5:54 pm

Okay, so I am a few days late for Valentine’s Day with this list, but I’ve worked nonstop since  Friday, which is a good thing. I was thinking about music and what songs I would put on a Valentine’s Day mix tape. Remember those? Yes. Ok, good. Well, here’s my top 14 romantic songs of all time.

14. Closer by Nine Inch Nails (1994)
I know what you’re thinking. How can a song that contains the lyrics “I want to fuck you like an animal” possibly be romantic? Depends on what you consider romantic. He does say “you make me perfect” and “you can have my everything” at different points of the song. I admit it might not be the most romantic, which is why it’s number 14, but, I dare you to say it’s not sexy.

13. Two Can Have A Party by Tammi Terrell (1966)
The lyrics say it all and I’m a sucker for 60s doo wop music. Unlike most romantic songs it’s not a dirge. It’s upbeat and sassy. There’s nothing worse than a drawn out depressing song like “Take My Breath Away.” Yes, I consider that song depressing or maybe just shitty. Anyway, how can you not like a song that was later done with Marvin Gaye?

12. Lovesong by The Cure (1989)
This song has been covered by everyone from 3-11 to Adele, but it’s the simple lyrics and melody that do it for me. There are other Cure songs I like better, but this one is a classic and the it’s right there in the name.

11. Grenade by Bruno Mars (2010)
This might be the most relentlessly dark song on the list. A man is hopelessly in love with a woman and will do anything for her including catch a grenade, but “she won’t do the same.” This non-reciprocal love song is beautiful nevertheless and probably more realistic than most ballads. This song will always be a classic.

10. You and Me by Alice Cooper (1977)
“You and me ain’t movie stars….” but it’s enough for a working man apparently. The lyrics show blue-collar love at its finest. Everytime I hear “You and Me,” I can’t help, but think of the real man underneath the makeup.

9. To Love Somebody by the Bee Gees (1967)
Proving their style was more than just a gimmick, the Bee Gees could write some damn good ballads. This is quite the testament to love. “I live and I breathe for you.” Lyrics like that make most women melt.

8. Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars (2010)
Speaking of making women melt, Mr. Mars makes the list again with the loveliest song about a woman’s looks since “You are so Beautiful.” It’s also realistic because it highlights a woman’s modesty when her man compliments her. I think this is one of the best love songs in the last 10 years. It’s also upbeat and fun.

7. Love Reign Over Me by The Who (1972)
I would be remiss if I didn’t highlight the passion of this song. In this case, I favor the way this song is sung and the context, over the lyrics themselves. When Roger Daltry does that scream towards the end, I believe him wholeheartedly. Also, watch Quadrophenia.

6. Love Me Tender By Elvis Presley (1956)
This song is so sweet, simple and sincere-sounding it makes you forgot how much he cheated on every woman he ever loved. It hit #1 on the billboard charts and was re-recorded many times, but the Elvis version remains timeless.

5.  Je t’aime…moi non plus by Serge Gainsbourg (with Jane Birkin) (1967/69)
See also #14. While this song literally translates to I love you…me neither, one has to understand it as a conversation between two lovers while engaged in coitus. Originally recorded as a love song for then-married-Brigitte Bardot, but the sounds of her moaning on the record and lyrics like “I go and I come between your loins” probably wouldn’t have flown with her husband. That version was held back for obvious reasons. I think it’s pretty bad ass that Serge would be ballsy enough to record something like this and equally bad ass that his new girlfriend, Jane Birkin, wouldn’t mind recording a love song written for someone else. She makes the song her own solidifying her as a breathy sexpot. Gainsbourg knew how to be a provocateur with lyrics and this song was banned by the Vatican, as well as many countries. Who wouldn’t want to be the “wave” to their “naked island?” 

4. Your Song by Elton John (1967)
The gift of a song is a beautiful thing. Elton John let us know we can tell everybody that this is ours. “I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words…How wonderful life is while you’re in the world.” Who would mind?  Timeless, beautiful and fresh every time I hear it. 

3. Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton (1976)
It might be one of my more obvious choices, but it’s on everyone’s list and played at weddings all over the world for a reason. Between the lyrics and the guitar riff, I can’t help but fall in love with this song over and over again. Every woman wants to be told she looks great and is a wonderful person.

2. Something by The Beatles (1969) and You Are So Beautiful by Joe Cocker (1975)
I’m cheating a little here, but You Are So Beautiful is so short, it’s hardly a full song. The sentiment makes up for its brevity and Joe Cocker’s passionate delivery has melted hearts for decades. “Something” is my favorite George Harrison scribed Beatles song. There’s something so pure about the way he loves this woman. I am complete putty when I hear it. 

1. Maybe I’m Amazed by Paul McCartney/Wings (originally, 1970)
Dedicated to his wife Linda who helped him get through the horrible breakup with The Beatles. To me this is the perfect marriage of lyrics and passion in the delivery. So beautiful.

Runners up: Love of My Life by Queen, Never Tear Us Apart by Inxs, When A Man Loves a Woman by Percy Sledge, With or Without You by U2, Pictures of You by The Cure, When I Was Your Man by Bruno Mars, I’ll Stand By You by The Pretenders, Melt With You by Modern English, Wonderful by Adam Ant, Thank You by Led Zeppelin, Yellow by Coldplay and There Is No If by The Cure.



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